In your very first report from Ukraine, you wrote about a sudden feeling of freedom that took hold of you at the Lviv train station in May 2022. And you quote a person who responds to this by saying, “you probably think freedom is Ukraine. But it is war.” It would be interesting to find out what this person thinks now. This person is my close friend, who is introduced in the
last piece as Borya, a designer. The same guy who says that at first it seemed to him that war mobilizes the good qualities in people, but later he figured out that it awakens all the worst in people. And that a long war is a catastrophe for society.
I think it took one day at the beginning of the war for it to become clear [to me] what was important and what was not. Everything became very real. Peacetime and wartime modes of existence are just different psychophysiological registers.
But that freedom quickly dissipated. Neither an individual nor society can remain in such a state for long. Now, the situation is the opposite. It is hard to speak of freedom and mutual assistance when everyone is running from TCRs (Ukrainian territorial centers of recruitment) and coming up with all sorts of papers just so they do not have to go die on the front line.
How has your personal attitude toward this war changed over the past three years?When the war began, I had the feeling, on the one hand, that a catastrophe had occurred and, on the other hand, that everything had finally become clear. There were no compromises anymore; we could say where the evil was. Because all these 20 years under Putin we had been wriggling, trying to make room for everyone.
And then suddenly it became clear – finally we did not need to try to build consensus with them; they are just monsters, and that’s it. There was a sense of clarity and plainness. I think many people look for that in war, in fact. And I think for many this war has brought moral relief.
Three years later, the monsters have not gone anywhere and we still need to talk to them.Yes, it turns out the monsters have not gone anywhere.
But that is not even the main thing. The real result of these three years is that everything has become more complex, not simpler. And the complexity of reality has been revealed in its terrifying fullness over these three years. In 2022, we fought against the [Russian propaganda trope] that “everything is not so black and white,” but everything turned out much less black and white.
The leitmotif of your latest pieces is that the warring sides have much more in common than it seems. It seems like the people fighting for one side could have ended up on the other if their fate had been a little different.Of course. Take a guy who was mobilized in Luhansk or Donetsk – if he had gone to central Ukraine before the war, he would have been mobilized [into the Ukrainian army] there. And yes, almost everyone has relatives on the other side. This is the truth that the propaganda hides, of course.
Judging by your pieces, despite three years of war, family ties between Ukrainians and Russians are still strong. How do you explain this phenomenon?This may be a distortion. When I learn that a soldier calls, say, his son, who is in Russia, this touches me, I pay attention to it. But people who have cut all ties do not mention it, and they do not make it into the pieces. I have not specifically studied the issue.
It also struck me that the vocabulary of this war is the same on both sides. They use the same words to dehumanize the enemy. What do you think this speaks to?To what we have been talking about all along. It’s a problem every day on the front line to tell whether these guys whom you have started shooting at are friend or foe.